Jenny Jade

The quote above was my mantra for 2011. I swear that within it held some of the most defining moments of my life. I digged deep to find and build character. I gave the year all the fight within me and started anew in 2012 when I went back to school. I can say now that I am a much smarter and wiser person for it. I also found strength and confidence I didn’t know I possessed.

(I know I’m missing the details as to what my accomplishments were in 2011, I’d reference them in backdated posts, but don’t have the time now.) 

I was just thinking as I went shopping yesterday: I wish I could just hire a stylist. That would make my life SOoOo much easier! I freakin love her outfit btw, but would I ever pick these pieces out myself? Probably not, not because I don’t like them, but because when I look at each piece individually, I’m thinking, that doesn’t go with anything I have. “Ayahh” is how I feel about #fashion. (I totally know the hashtag doesn’t serve any purpose here.)  

I’ve decided that I’m going to start writing down my thoughts daily in hopes that it will become a habitual thing. I miss writing so much yet, find every excuse to do it. “Sigh.” I can feel my head compressing together, a headache is coming. I am a bit stressed. BREATHE JENNY BREATHE…. INNN… and OUUTTT…. Honestly, there is no legitimate reason as to why I feel like this, I totally put all these obligations on myself… WHYYY… I ask myself as I knock my head miserably against the wall: FOR THE EXPERIENCE… to try, make mistakes, see how others do it, fail, expedite my job/career experiences, learn something new about myself, network, do EVERYTHING at least once so that it gets easier the second time or do everything so that I know what I want or DON’T want to do.

But then it hits me that sometimes I compromise quality effort. There’s a saying, “when you try to get a computer to do everything, it never does anything well” or “when you have limited resources (time), you compromise quality.” Hmm… I beat myself up with these quotes all the time, there is absolutely no need for anyone to rephrase them to me. It’s like telling someone who knows they’re wrong “you’re wrong.” Now how annoying would that be?

But I’m young and still have the energy (that’s what they tell me) so I might as well take advantage and dip my feet into everything, learn from everyone and choose between options as to who I want to be from an objective point of view. I have nothing to lose (but sleep) and everything to gain from it. I always learn something from the process and am continually reminded that I am better for it.  

To the man who used to take me fishing every day as a girl, drive me to 1 1/2 hr to school, wait for 8 hrs then drive me back for 2 months, the man who still calls me EVERY DAY to tell me he misses me. I love you & everything I do and pursue in life is for us. My mom is my best friend and my dad is my husband. I have all that I need… (Taken with Instagram)

“The more you get involved the richer your life is.” (Taken with Instagram)

“Democracy is not a spectator sport. We are put on this earth to leave it in a better state than when we were put on it.” @ Neighborhood Leadership Workshop! (Taken with Instagram at Hayward City Hall)

Can you imagine the Hayward community and educational institutions listening to spoken word poetry here!? Well believe it! Saturday @ the Neighborhood Leadership Workshop @ Hayward City Hall 9-3. Just went through the agenda again today! I’m excited! It’s going to be fun and interactive. Pls get at me for details we want to see you there! (Taken with Instagram at Hayward City Hall)