For the Experience
I’ve decided that I’m going to start writing down my thoughts daily in hopes that it will become a habitual thing. I miss writing so much yet, find every excuse to do it. “Sigh.” I can feel my head compressing together, a headache is coming. I am a bit stressed. BREATHE JENNY BREATHE…. INNN… and OUUTTT…. Honestly, there is no legitimate reason as to why I feel like this, I totally put all these obligations on myself… WHYYY… I ask myself as I knock my head miserably against the wall: FOR THE EXPERIENCE… to try, make mistakes, see how others do it, fail, expedite my job/career experiences, learn something new about myself, network, do EVERYTHING at least once so that it gets easier the second time or do everything so that I know what I want or DON’T want to do.
But then it hits me that sometimes I compromise quality effort. There’s a saying, “when you try to get a computer to do everything, it never does anything well” or “when you have limited resources (time), you compromise quality.” Hmm… I beat myself up with these quotes all the time, there is absolutely no need for anyone to rephrase them to me. It’s like telling someone who knows they’re wrong “you’re wrong.” Now how annoying would that be?
But I’m young and still have the energy (that’s what they tell me) so I might as well take advantage and dip my feet into everything, learn from everyone and choose between options as to who I want to be from an objective point of view. I have nothing to lose (but sleep) and everything to gain from it. I always learn something from the process and am continually reminded that I am better for it.